He told a publication in 2018: ‘All I know is that as we get older, the weight of our unsorted luggage gets heavier… much heavier. With each passing year, the price of our refusal to do that sorting becomes higher and higher. Long ago, the defenses I built to withstand the stress of childhood, to save what I had of myself, outlived their usefulness, and I became an abuser of their once life-saving powers. I wrongly relied on isolating myself, sealing my alienation, cutting myself off from life, controlling others, and harmfully controlling my emotions. Now the bill collector knocks, and his payment will be in tears.
Long before he fell 45 feet on Wednesday, Oct. 16, Payne channeled his inner torment into a series of songs for a rumored second solo album.
This prompted a source to say: “Liam was clearly a very troubled man, and these lyrics show it. Lyrics about having a weight on his back and feeling trapped fueled the fire of fear that he jumped .”